Here's my list:
- Stick to resolutions
- Change my life for the better
- Follow my own advice
I wish everyone a Happy New Year, and stick to your resolutions!
Lots of love x x x
Sunday 30 December 2012
Promises, promises...
I have never managed to stick to my New Year's resolutions. I can finish books, coursework and decorating, but anything that will make a notable impact on my life, I seem to shy away from. Why? I have no idea. But that is my inspiration for one of my resolutions!
Here's my list:
I wish everyone a Happy New Year, and stick to your resolutions!
Lots of love x x x
Here's my list:
I wish everyone a Happy New Year, and stick to your resolutions!
Lots of love x x x
#3 A taste of destruction
The anticipation made clear in her trembling lips, the strength of his hands on each side of her face conflicting the fragility of their situation. They shouldn't do this, they are parallels, they are toxic when combined. But in this state of euphoria, their adrenaline rushing and rising along with their nerves as well as excitement, they are in love.
They had never been more concious of eachother, she had never appreciated the passionate glow of his glazed green eyes, just as he had not sympathized with the depth of her doe-eyed hazels. They simply stared, as if they were exploring eachother's souls to discover any last hope or reason to hold onto the relationship they once had cherished. The longing, the need, the disappointment.
His hands travelled from her face, down her neck, across her shoulders and fell to her hands. Their fingers instinctively fitted into eachother. To him, her hands felt more fragile, her grip was tighter than ever, but she felt weak, all he could feel were the bones, as if she had been drained. Drained of strength, drained of life and drained of hope. And yet to her, he still felt powerful, strong and she knew she needed him.
It was him who was in control, she was lost in her constantly rearranging headspace, she could see no way out, her feelings were blocking the window that she needed to see. She needed to see the happiness that was within her reach if only she could let go, let go of the her that he had created.
He released one hand, and raised it to her hair, he brushed the stray strands behind her ear, she leaned into his hand and gently kissed his palm. It intoxicated him, he was weakened. He turned her face so that they were eye to eye, nose to nose, and their breaths were meeting between them. They kissed. They were enchanted in a moment of silence, intensity and bliss. It ended suddenly, and with a look of panic in his eyes, he left without a single word; leaving her clueless, confused and caught. Still caught in his game. She was parralysed, she knew that was his goodbye and she collapsed into herself, failing to hold in her emotion any longer, the tears that she had repeatedly cried for him began to fall again.
She didn't know that this was what he wanted her to do, he found it empowering to know that she would go back to him without a second thought. Their relationship had destroyed her, but made him. Now the end was doing the same; instead of demolishing her love for him, she pressed self destruct.
They had never been more concious of eachother, she had never appreciated the passionate glow of his glazed green eyes, just as he had not sympathized with the depth of her doe-eyed hazels. They simply stared, as if they were exploring eachother's souls to discover any last hope or reason to hold onto the relationship they once had cherished. The longing, the need, the disappointment.
His hands travelled from her face, down her neck, across her shoulders and fell to her hands. Their fingers instinctively fitted into eachother. To him, her hands felt more fragile, her grip was tighter than ever, but she felt weak, all he could feel were the bones, as if she had been drained. Drained of strength, drained of life and drained of hope. And yet to her, he still felt powerful, strong and she knew she needed him.
It was him who was in control, she was lost in her constantly rearranging headspace, she could see no way out, her feelings were blocking the window that she needed to see. She needed to see the happiness that was within her reach if only she could let go, let go of the her that he had created.
He released one hand, and raised it to her hair, he brushed the stray strands behind her ear, she leaned into his hand and gently kissed his palm. It intoxicated him, he was weakened. He turned her face so that they were eye to eye, nose to nose, and their breaths were meeting between them. They kissed. They were enchanted in a moment of silence, intensity and bliss. It ended suddenly, and with a look of panic in his eyes, he left without a single word; leaving her clueless, confused and caught. Still caught in his game. She was parralysed, she knew that was his goodbye and she collapsed into herself, failing to hold in her emotion any longer, the tears that she had repeatedly cried for him began to fall again.
She didn't know that this was what he wanted her to do, he found it empowering to know that she would go back to him without a second thought. Their relationship had destroyed her, but made him. Now the end was doing the same; instead of demolishing her love for him, she pressed self destruct.
#2 Living in the toxic humanity
Wrath(anger), greed, sloth(laziness), pride, lust, envy, and gluttony.
The "seven deadly sins" that are present in all of us. Known as capital vices or cardinal sins, they may not sound too appealing. But we need all of them to be human.
We should feel wrath or anger if someone mistreats us or someone we care for, we need to so that we can be proud that we are able to share our opinion, stand up for our beliefs and protect those that we love, or even those that we don't know but need support.
We need greed so that we have the ambition to succeed and get what we want, but yes, it needs to be a give and take situation.
We all need to take time out, release your inner sloth! Take time to refresh, experience gluttony and indulge yourself. Just make sure that you've done enough to deserve the luxuries you're indulging yourself in!
Envy. It is horrible to experience, but if handled in the right way, it makes you work harder. Seeing someone as superior to you, makes you aspire to be on their level, or even above. So do it, get there, and be proud.
Lust = desire = aspirations. See, want, get. If you don't get, have pride and self respect, and move on!
Theses cardinal sins are like toxic chemicals. They are needed for use in various scientific things that I don't understand, but they need to be handled carefully or they will do serious damage.
The "seven deadly sins" that are present in all of us. Known as capital vices or cardinal sins, they may not sound too appealing. But we need all of them to be human.
We should feel wrath or anger if someone mistreats us or someone we care for, we need to so that we can be proud that we are able to share our opinion, stand up for our beliefs and protect those that we love, or even those that we don't know but need support.
We need greed so that we have the ambition to succeed and get what we want, but yes, it needs to be a give and take situation.
We all need to take time out, release your inner sloth! Take time to refresh, experience gluttony and indulge yourself. Just make sure that you've done enough to deserve the luxuries you're indulging yourself in!
Envy. It is horrible to experience, but if handled in the right way, it makes you work harder. Seeing someone as superior to you, makes you aspire to be on their level, or even above. So do it, get there, and be proud.
Lust = desire = aspirations. See, want, get. If you don't get, have pride and self respect, and move on!
Theses cardinal sins are like toxic chemicals. They are needed for use in various scientific things that I don't understand, but they need to be handled carefully or they will do serious damage.
#1 The dead do not cry
Not everything happens for a reason, sometimes it is your fault, and sometimes it's theirs. Either way, it can get too much. You feel the intensity of the guilt, or the passionate hate for someone you once adored. This is when you close your eyes, for the dead do not cry. Remember a time when times were simple, and you were happy, and be there. Then do it; act and think how you did in those times. Simplify everything.
It's okay if something goes wrong, and it is courageous to pick yourself up and noble to try again. You have more choices than you are aware of, it is not left or right. You define the choices yourself, you define yourself by those choices, and the more complex they are, the more impressive, wise and inspiring you become. These choices will make people love you, and make people loathe you. But have faith in what you do. Know that the people you need in your life, will stay throughout. The ones you lose along the way are like the few bulbs on the Christmas lights that don't work, they're there for the sparkle and attention, but contribute nothing, and in the end, are the reason you get thrown away.
In the words of the beautiful Amy Winehouse, "Our day will come, if we just wait a while. No tears for us, think love and wear a smile".
It's okay if something goes wrong, and it is courageous to pick yourself up and noble to try again. You have more choices than you are aware of, it is not left or right. You define the choices yourself, you define yourself by those choices, and the more complex they are, the more impressive, wise and inspiring you become. These choices will make people love you, and make people loathe you. But have faith in what you do. Know that the people you need in your life, will stay throughout. The ones you lose along the way are like the few bulbs on the Christmas lights that don't work, they're there for the sparkle and attention, but contribute nothing, and in the end, are the reason you get thrown away.
In the words of the beautiful Amy Winehouse, "Our day will come, if we just wait a while. No tears for us, think love and wear a smile".
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